i really want a girlfriend.

i'm going to shit my pants
he called me his best friend
i feel so incredible right now

yes

how could you do this to me
not once
but twice already
i don't understand
is this all a joke?
ha
haha
ah haha ha aha haha hahaha
so funny
ha.

this is the worst i've felt in a little while
i just really
want to die
and that's it
i'll be ok after that
whatever happens after that

i just

how the fuck could you ask me
what's wrong
i explain
you say literally
3 things
then just fucking stop talking
clearly i am out of my fucking mind here
god
i love you but really
please don't talk to me again for a while

i just did it

for the first time
i don't regret it at all
felt great