I'd like to not always feel so
guilty
as if I actually committed a crime.
When we talk,
you tell me
that I have nothing to worry about,
and instead
you blame yourself.
There is no reason
you should ever blame
yourself.
You're not the person
who started this whole mess.
Do not defend her.
Do not defend me.

goddamn it.
i told myself i wouldn't ever, ever fall again, that i would never have those feelings brought up again.
i am so stupid.