it's a little too easy
to deceive people
into thinking that
i'm okay
because i am not
okay
i don't think
i ever will be.

i'm feeling very
numb
as if
i have no emotions
i am not happy
i am not sad
nor am i angry
i am not anything
i'm not even scared
because i don't know
if i should worry about this
or not
i just don't know

i was too selfish to realize how little harm you actually do.
i'm sorry.